Unfortunately, I am a very competitive person by nature. I don’t like to fail. But, I do…daily…actually, many times a day. I love technology because it is challenging to me. I fail more than I accomplish most days but I love the challenge. When I do succeed, I have a huge sense of gratification.
As a teacher, I am terrified of the day an administrator walks into my room and I am trying a new lesson, especially when it involves technology. Yes, I said it…I am afraid to fail! I don’t want to fail in front of my students either. I want to be the best at everything all of the time. **Insert, aha moment here…I am not. I need my students to see how I handle things when they are not going smooth. I need them to see me not give up. I need them to understand that when they fail, they need to know how to react to that.
Giving up is so easy, but my competitive personality does not allow me quit. When technology fails, I exhaust all possible avenues before I give up. I search and search and search some more until I either find my answer on youtube or Lionel comes to rescue the day. I know I can do better and I want to do better. My students deserve so much more.
I want to see my students succeed. I am here to try to show them that there are more opportunities in the world than they can possibly imagine. I want them to see that they have to work hard to achieve great things. My own children are lucky. They have a lot of amazing people in their lives who model hard work for them. A lot of our students are not as lucky. For those students, we need to be that role model. Even if it isn’t technology, they need to see us learning new things and how we handle the challenging moments.